They were not expecting It. ;-)

by: Christian Duran

I haven't updated my blog for some time now. I am so busy nowadays. I have my work during night (I worked in a call center presently) and then during the day I prefer to sleep since i'm to tired in doing anything. Worst, every saturday I also have a class for my masteral. Yeah, i'm taking up Masteral (Masters in Business Administration). It's just that I want to have a clear destination. After I finish my MBA, i'm aiming to teach in college. I want to be a professor. I want to have a profession. It's tough to work and study at the same time. By this, I somewhat consider myself as a working student.


Considering that i have worked at night, my mind is floating everytime I attend class. I immediately go to class after 10 hours of work and my class is good for 6 hours. I am not a superhuman so i feel the toll of it.


Here's a weird experience that I considered awkward but fun. hehe. I forgot the date on when it happened but it was on the month of July I guess. we have our Graduate School orientation and acquaintance program. Part of which are the traditional introduction of graduate school officers, discussions on the history of graduate school, lectures on what to expect in the graduate program, rules, regulations, etc.


Now, all the Graduate School departments were there, (Doctoral, Masters in Nursing, MBA, etc) and like any other program, there was always this part called "talent portion". I don't want to blame anyone but it so happened that we were only informed about it an hour before the program starts. All other groups had their week long presentation to show a decent performance. in our case, we were pushing on someone to present for the group. Discussions and suggestions were made but in the end, being one of the youngest if not the youngest among the group or perhaps of all the graduate school (i'm 21 yrs old), I found myself as the representative of our group. (MBA)


So, the program started, lectures were done and lunch time came. after lunch, groups had their presentation. The doctoral class enjoyed their ball room presentation. The Masters in Nursing Class had their well prepared and well executed "eenie-meenie-miny-moe lover", so on and so forth.


Now, when the MC called the MBA class, majority of my classmates already went home and few of us were left. initially we planned that I will dance in the beginning part and they will be in the latter part to perform with me but turns out that what was planned will not be demonstrated. Some of my classmates requested to allow us not to perform because we haven't prepared. But I told them that it's okay for me even if I will just be the one to represent the group.


So there I was in front with my mind floating since I haven't slept. I felt drowsy and seemed to be drunk but I was game for anything. I haven't really practiced anything and I dont even know what music will be played. I just requested the song "Shots" since it's an upbeat song to have me pumping. the song was played and I grooved with it freestyle. I had my breakdancing moves displayed on stage. I haven't danced for that long and I admit my moves are limited but I know some stunts. After 2 mins i guess I ended my performance.


It was fun though. :-). looking at the faces of the audience, (doctorate class, dean, nuns, and so may respected personalities in school), they did not expect such performance. better yet, they were not ready for that. haha.. they were in awe. after i performed, the MC made clear about it that it that it was a surprising number. hahaha


After the program, the dean went to me and praised me with my performance. (I gained a fan) haha.. When I went home, I instantly got knocked down and did not wake up until the next day. hahaha. it was a fun day and one of the many awkward moments that I can add to my list. ;-)

Heartfelt lines

1. "I promise with all my heart that come what may, in my own little way, I'll make you smile each and every single day." - Christian Duran


2. "If time is gold, I'm willing to spend all my gold to be with you." - Christian Duran


3. "I love the way her eyes cheerfully glisten and how she gracefully sways her hand when she says “hi” and oh, her smile is just a breath taking sight, leaving me stunned with a deep sigh." - Christian Duran


4. "Seeing you from a distance, feeling your presence, knowing that you are there is more than enough for me to be happy. How much more if I see your smile?" - Christian Duran


5. "I was a part of Robin and his friends(Teen Titans).. been with Captain Nemo and his team (The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen). And I've realized the depressing truth that wherever I go, no matter what things I do, you're just too good for me. I can't reach you no matter how hard I try.. and even if join Superman and the Justice League, the sad reality won't change.. you're still out of my league." - Christian Duran


6. "I'm the type of guy who cries over love stories. A guy who's afraid of injection and thinks of running away from it. But I tell you what.. I may be weak and lame but for whatever reason that you need someone, you can always call my name."- Christian Duran


7. "You know what sucks? It's the idea that you're trying your best to avoid someone hoping that she would somehow miss you when you know the fact that she doesn't even recognized that you're gone and doesn't care at all." - Christian Duran


8. "I wish that I could have the chance to be with you even for just a moment and have the sweetest sound that I long to hear... the sound of your laughter." - Christian Duran


9. "If I could add something in this lonely night, I would put twinkling snowflakes in the sky to dance with shooting stars and brighten your lovely eyes" - Christian Duran


10. "I want to fly like the wind and take you with me in my journey towards the glistening moon. While the world is calmly sleeping, we will be playing with the stars. I want to fly like the wind and make this dream come true. Nothing else would then matter but me and you." - Christian Duran


11. "Do you know the similarities between a leech and vying for your attention? They both feel uncomfortable and they both suck." - Christian Duran


12. "Whenever I look in the sky, I realize that we are still in one roof no matter how far we are from each other." - Christian Duran


13. "Cupid may be closing his eyes or using a blindfold every time he shoots those arrows for him not to see people's faces but listen to their hearts for him to find and hit the perfect match." - Christian Duran


14. Kung madali kang mawalan ng gana at basta na lang sumuko ang tawag sa’yo ay “quitter.” Pero pa’no naman kung di ka nawawalan ng pag-asa at handing maghintay? Tama ba kung ang itawag sa’yo ay “waiter”? - Christian Duran


15. "I want to stroll and relax.. to feel the cool wind touching my soul.. and under the cozy shade of a tree, I’ll watch the lovely sunset.. but it will be much nicer if you’re with me watching this heart-warming sight for me to see your heart-melting smile." - Christian Duran


16. "I want to enjoy a long quite sleep at night thinking of sweet dreams and happy thoughts But it will be much nicer if you’re at my side as I close my eyes and I can smell your hair as I hug you tight" - Christian Duran


17. "I want to wake up in the morning full of life as the warm sun greets me with a smile. But it will much nicer if I wake up and see your face to be greeted by your warm sweet embrace" - Christian Duran


18. They say jokes are half meant.. with that in mind, how I wish that the idea of you and me together will be a joke.. it would be much better.. at least it would be half meant.. compared to what it is right now.. totally not meant to be.." - Christian Duran


19. "Women are men's kryptonite." - Christian Duran


20. "Let me be a janitor.. give me a broom an the first thiing that I would do is to sweep you off your feet. " - Christian Duran


21. Love is like a chewing gum. Sobrang tamis sa umpisa.. nguya ka nang nguya.. pa-bubble2x pa.. ngunit later on, mapapagod rin ang 'yong dila.. sweetness will be gone and maba-badtrip ka matapos pumutok ang bubble sa'yong mukha and you'll decide na ito'y iluwa.." - Christian Duran


22. "Tuwing tine-text kita ng "hi", ang gusto ko sanang sabihin ay "miss kita". Pag tine-text kita ng "anong ginagawa mo?", gusto ko sanang sabihin na, "puede ba kitang yayaing lumabas?" at pag nagtext ako ng "ingat ka", ang gusto ko sanang sabihin ay "mahal kita." Pasensya ka na, wala pa akong lakas ng loob para masabi sa'yo ang mga ito." - Christian Duran


23. I will never be the best man for you and I won't even try. I mean, why would I, when I can be the groom." - Christian Duran


24. "Some men will say that if ever they see a woman cry, they will wipe the tears away. Well, I don't belong to them. What I will do rather is to make her smile and laugh so that the tears of sorrow becomes tears of joy" - Christian Duran


25. "I don't want to be the man of your dreams. I would rather prefer to be the man of your realities. " - Christian Duran


26. It's sad to fall for a tantalizer. Whatever I do, I will never have you. No matter how hard I try, things always end with a sigh. My emotion's for real.. but you're surreal. - Mystery


27. "I'm not really thinking of you.. it's just that you're the only person inside my heart.. leaving me no choice." - Christian Duran


28. If I can save Metro City, can I be the hero of your reality? -Mystery (inspired by Megamind)


29. "Infatuation oftentimes receives infinite misinterpretations. We call it just like that when the truth is, it's premature love. Yes, premature but the thing is, it' still love. The reason why it doesn't fully blossom into mature love is because we are so damn trapped with the the idea that it's only infatuation. Only infatuation, nothing more nothing less leaving it's potential to self extinction" - Christian Duran


30. "People are like yo-yos. Better not push them away too hard for the string might be detached and they might never come back." - Christian Duran


31. You're like chess.. You're not only giving me a hard time analyzing you. You're also giving me "chess pain." - Christian Duran


32. "It's okay if you lie.. as long as you lie next to me." - Christian Duran


33. "Even if I'll become the richest man on Earth, there will always be one thing I can never afford. I can never afford losing you." - Christian Duran


34. If there's one thing that will never be extinct here on Earth, then that would be LOVE for even the word EVOLution has LOVE on it." - Christian Duran


35. "Don't dwell on failures, keep things light but always put a good fight." - Christian Duran


36. "Love is strange and we are all strangers." - Christian Duran


37. "Be calm; that's one ingredient for you to be what you want to become." - Christian Duran


38. "My dream is not impossible but highly improbable. Will it come true? No one can tell. I've always been dreaming that you'll dream of me as well." - Christian Duran


39. "More than plans being fulfilled, it's the thought of reaching out that should be given enough yield. Random act of kindness, so it is.. touching the hearts of people much like getting what you've wished." - Christian Duran


40. "Doing the things you love becomes even more lovelier if you're doing it for the one you love." - Christian Duran


41. '"It's time that I shrug off all the rust and feel the rush." - Mystery


42. ‎"You got to move and you got to act. In short, you should make it happen. That's why it's called happiness." - Christian Duran


43. In life, you need to make choices. You shouldn't limit yourself and remain stagnant. Take risks. You literally need to hop; In short, be "hoppy" to become happy." -Christian Duran


44. "It's okay even if you don't know how to find the sum, product, or quotient as long as know how to make a difference." - Christian Duran


45. "I will name my son "Sir"so that whatever profession he takes and whomever he speaks, people will always address him properly." - Christian Duran

46. "Those short-lived moments when you meet a total stranger who made your heart beats faster but left you hopeless forever." - Christian Duran

‎47. "What's the brightest thing your eyes have ever set upon? Many people would say, it's the sun. But for me, it's your smile 'cause even during rainy days, it stays; and the magical glow of your smile makes everything all worthwhile." - Christian Duran


‎48. "Your tears should be his kryptonite. If it doesn't make him weak, then he's not your superman." - Christian Duran


49. "When I was a kid, I used to count the stars to fall asleep. But now, thinking of you alone is enough because of the countless reasons why I am blessed to have you." - Christian Duran


50. "Finding someone to love and loves you in return uplifts your spirit to wake up each day and face reality that is way better than your dreams." - Christian Duran


51. "It's okay to be happy with what you have accomplished but there's a thin line between being proud and pushing oneself too hard to associate to a certain class. Stay mum and catch others by surprise when they spontaneously discovered what you have achieved. Don't brag too much especially if others who have been there and have undergone much more don't even say a word and didn't let their achievements get in their heads." - Christian Duran


52. "People sometimes lost their identity when they tried so hard to fit in. They carry a different persona just to show that they belong and jive with the people around them. At the end of the day, being true to one's self is the easiest way around; no pretensions needed for real friends don't look at one's status but the value of the person." - Christian Duran

I acted like a kid. did I make myself look like a coward?

by: Christian Duran






Friday-October 30, 2009 at around 5:41 p.m. on my watch. Me and my friend were about to leave SM and go to Rob to have his favorite batchoy. (artehan bi.. gusto ya gid sa Rob kay ga-patronize gid sa Deco’s.) when I told him to linger for a few moments for the slimmest possibility that I will saw “T-Mac”.. (don’t get me wrong.. she’s a girl.. just using a code name to keep her identity confidential) She’s my friend..errr.. a facebook friend and chat mate.. well, occasionally when she’s on the mood to talk. Hehe. We haven’t met in person yet but I know that I can recognize her if I saw her for real. I kept looking at her pics and her face already registered on my find.


All of a sudden, I can’t believe what I saw.. it’s T-Mac! Wow.. fate was really on my side that day. What's the possibility of seeing the person you just mentioned at that very moment after you've said that maybe you can find her? quite unusual, right? I was so overwhelmed. Mixed emotions were running through my veins. I was quite nervous and at the same time excited. My friend was also excited cos he often sit by my side every time I chat with T-Mac. To make sure if she was really “the one” we pretended to walk somewhere just to be closer and have a clearer glimpse of her. And I was right.. it was really her.


She was with her friends. There were three of them. I guess they were looking for a dress maybe for a certain occasion or for a present which I am not sure if I am right. But they were entering boutiques and kept on picking and choosing the right dress. At that point I was thinking to approach her and introduce myself. But because she was with her friends, I was hesitant to do that move. My friend kept on encouraging me to do it but I guess I’m scared of being embarrassed. I mean what if I approach her and she won’t recognize me? I guess it will be awkward and besides I don’t know what words will I say to catch her attention in a gentle man approach.


From time to time I just glanced at her hoping that she will also stare at me and will somehow recognize me. If I could have that moment where our eyes will met for just some seconds I guess I will have the courage to approach her and start a conversation. But she seemed to be busy. Nonetheless there were moments where our eyes met.. where I was about to give her a smile but those moments were just split seconds and were so fast for me to have the confidence that I am looking for. I guess she really didn’t recognize me.


One of her friends seemed to notice that we were following them so we pretended to look for something and maintain a quite safe distance para ‘di mahalata. Every moment that she was on my sight, there was a feeling of hesitation in my mind whether I should really and grab the chance to talk to her.. or just be contented to see her and avoid the possibility of being embarrassed.


Whenever there are moments like this, I often find myself gutsy enough to do the bold move but I didn’t find the confidence that time. Finally I decided to write a letter saying, “Hi. I know you are____. I’m Chris, friend mo sa facebook. Maybe you won’t recognize me but that’s fine. I just want to say that it’s nice to see you in person and you’re really pretty. I mean it.” I was planning to give to her without saying a word and just leave.


Sad to say, I blew the chance.. that moment when I was ready to approach and give the letter, I can’t find her anymore.. We searched for her but I guess she already went home. I had about an hour of opportunity to approach her but I haven’t had the nerve.

The sad part is.. I don’t know when will I see her again..